"Up!" - Shania Twain

On Monday (the 9th) I received a phone call from my OB nurse who had finally reviewed my latest ultrasound.  I knew immediately it wasn't going to be great news-she doesn't call to see what I had for lunch...

At this point, it's not horrible news.  But I have been diagnosed with partial placenta previa (I won't go into the details of what it is, the link will explain if you're in need of a diagram...).  It won't be horrible news (in my book) until 4 weeks or so from now, and that's if my placenta doesn't move "north" by then, allowing for a natural birth.  C-sections have always scared me.  I'm just such a big believer in things happening the way they should, granted I'm not saying I want to attempt to have this child without medical interference at the risk of my own life...I'm just going to be a mess mentally if we are faced with the complications that will result if my placenta doesn't take a hike.

So what does this mean now?  Well, in vague terms - pelvic rest.  It's bed rest, but I don't have to be in bed.  I haven't had any issues so far in the last 23 weeks, so my rest might be a little more lenient.  Probably no more walking just to walk, it really means no more of the mile jogs that I've been doing :(.  I will probably have a lifting weight restriction, which could be anywhere from 5-10lbs.  Bug is going to be disappointed.

Anyway, I won't know my exact limitations are until a couple days from now when I get to talk with my nurse.  It's all just a little disheartening.  Things were going to swimmingly, and this was kind of the last thing we needed 3 weeks out from starting our PCS.

Is there joy in this journey????  I get another ultrasound in 4 weeks...?  This will be definitely be a lesson in patience and learning how to let go of worry, which whether I like it or not, will be good for me.  And down the line I'll look back and be glad I didn't ruin 3 weeks of my life with my family stressing out over something I have absolutely no control over.  Is that a stretch?  I feel like I'm reaching a little bit, but I guess if you want joy you have to work for it, huh?  Find it and make it if it's not right in front of your face - that's the struggle we face in today's world.  No one wants to work for Joy, they would rather settle for living without it.

So, here we go, 3 weeks of finding Joy while moving in slow motion!